First, apology there has not been any crafting goin' on, no pretty posts of flowery cards or what not, lately. I have been a little, well....SWAMPED!
Second, an apology for those of you that just come here for pretty pictures and sale announcements...because this post is going to be long and personal. And, no, I do not blame you for leaving now. :)
OK, so here is the thing...I am the "strong one" the mediator, the listener. I referee fights, listen when someone needs to talk, get outraged on behalf of family and friends...and I just do it, it comes naturally. Lately, though...things have gotten hectic, with a 40 hour work week (and the busy time of year,) a stressful real estate deal, a new website, custom stamp orders, a 4 year old, a house, and friends in crisis my life has become a hurricane, and I do not know where it is blowing me! On top of all that my bank account has about run dry! :)
And so, I find myself with little sleep, little patience and my emotional strength stretched to it's max...and in the wake of all that I have spilled beans, forgotten important dates and just plain been a bad friend.
I usually just go through tough times and when I get to the other side I look back and say "Wow, that was tough!" But, right there in the middle I rarely feel it, it doesn't sink in and grab me...and maybe that is why people think I am strong, it isn't strength as much as oblivion! :D This time around though, I find myself sitting in the middle of a storm with no clue when it will end. When will I get to look back and see it in the past?? What has caused this uncommon perception of just how tough it is right now??? Am I growing wiser? Older? Weaker? Less Patient? Less of a friend? Hmmm...rhetorical questions all!
I'll leave you with these...my only creative outlets lately...