Tuesday, February 26, 2008

Sorry...

First, apology there has not been any crafting goin' on, no pretty posts of flowery cards or what not, lately. I have been a little, well....SWAMPED!

Second, an apology for those of you that just come here for pretty pictures and sale announcements...because this post is going to be long and personal. And, no, I do not blame you for leaving now. :)

OK, so here is the thing...I am the "strong one" the mediator, the listener. I referee fights, listen when someone needs to talk, get outraged on behalf of family and friends...and I just do it, it comes naturally. Lately, though...things have gotten hectic, with a 40 hour work week (and the busy time of year,) a stressful real estate deal, a new website, custom stamp orders, a 4 year old, a house, and friends in crisis my life has become a hurricane, and I do not know where it is blowing me! On top of all that my bank account has about run dry! :)

And so, I find myself with little sleep, little patience and my emotional strength stretched to it's max...and in the wake of all that I have spilled beans, forgotten important dates and just plain been a bad friend.

I usually just go through tough times and when I get to the other side I look back and say "Wow, that was tough!" But, right there in the middle I rarely feel it, it doesn't sink in and grab me...and maybe that is why people think I am strong, it isn't strength as much as oblivion! :D This time around though, I find myself sitting in the middle of a storm with no clue when it will end. When will I get to look back and see it in the past?? What has caused this uncommon perception of just how tough it is right now??? Am I growing wiser? Older? Weaker? Less Patient? Less of a friend? Hmmm...rhetorical questions all!

I'll leave you with these...my only creative outlets lately...



8 comments:

  1. Rach -
    1st of all the creative outlets that you posted are FABULOUS! I wouldn't expect anything else from you. You're one talented chick!

    2nd...I am sorry you feel that you are in the middle of a storm right now. I hope it helps to say that I love ya! And I am sending you some big glittery hugs! If it is a storm that you are in the middle of....it shall pass. That's what storms do. Right? HUGS!!!!!

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  2. I'm sorry you are having such a rough time. Things do get that way sometimes and they do pass, although it doesn't seem like it in the middle of it all, as you say. I'm sending good thoughts your way and hoping that life gets back to some semblance of order for you soon. *HUGS*

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  3. I hope you come out of that storm soon. Just remember, this too shall pass.

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  4. Sending you BIG BIG HUGS my sweet friend!! I'm so sorry you're feeling so discombobulated and unsettled. I don't know if there's anything I can do to make it better (if there is, please ask!) but maybe it'll help to know that I've been there too, feeling so overwhelmed and not knowing when all the crap will end or if I would even survive to make it to the end. But storms do always eventually pass and I do believe though they cause some damage, they bring some strength too, and the knowledge that if you survived that deluge, you can tackle anything. Anyway, that's enough out of me - ever had a comment longer than your original post before?? ;-)

    Love ya to pieces!!

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  5. Hugs sweetie!!! I'm sorry life is hectic at the moment and that you are overwhelmed!!! You definitely are a strong gal and I hope that this rough patch passes quickly. Hang in there!!!

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  6. I think we've probably all been where you are. Just try to take it day by day and sometimes even just hour by hour. It's like juggling in a way ... so just concentrate on one ball at a time. You will come through this and you will be stronger than ever. Although I know it probably doesn't seem like that right now.

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  7. {{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{RACHEL}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} Bug hugs my friend. You're the best!!!! I hope everything works itself out soon!!!!! (and hopefully you'll be getting a nice paycheck soon) ;) You're banners ROCK my friend. You are the best HUGS!!!!!

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  8. Your little banner thingys are really awesome!! You did a great job on them.


    I hope that things are starting to look brighter for you, chickie. ((hugs)) I'm sending you cotton candy wishes.

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